what happened?

Where did i go wrong?

what kind of person have i become?

The person I truly care about doesnt even wanna talk to me no more. He would like me to leave him alone... i didnt do shyt but still

He cant trust me no more... but i never betrayed his trust so why not?

he can never be happy... thats a given.. i thought i could give him the happiness he was lacking but guess not

and the thing that hurts the most is he says he loves me ... he doesnt even know what love is ... but heyy who does?

Im trying soo hard but i still seem to shed my tears

Seems like these days i cant trust no one. And I use to trust the whole world.. i use to forgive them millions of times and give themmillions of chances but people just started to take advantage of it

Everytime I have a good day .. something goes rong ... why cant my days be good all the time? i mean i understand life has its ups and downs by my life seems to be one longg bumpyy road.

I dont know what to do anymore. Even the people i put all my trust in have turned on me .. i just dont know.

heyy guys ... so promm was amazinggg.... it took me forever to get ready tho haha... and the glitter in my hairr was alll over the place by the end of the nite.. hahah.. i feel sorry for my date haha.. soo yeahh what did i do last weekend

well fridayy... i came home from a long day at school and just relaxed.. went to the movies with a couple of people and thenn i picked up nirali and went off to pratham to volunteer and stuff shyt and do all this lovely stuff haha... wow it was very interesting there... poor meera and nirali had to deal with silk, nupur, and my shit... so first silks starts crying .. then i start crying .. and then nups comes in and starts talking about her jaanwar haha.. o god... thennn i went to olive gardenn for dinner with the family and my brothers friends ... and then went back to pratham... that night was one hell of a bad nite t ho... :( i want you backk... i need you.. i just wished u realized... anyways we were suppose to be done by 2 in the morning but there were technical difficulties at kinkos so we just left around 12ish and i dropped nups and nirali home and hit the sack

THEN saturday

i got home... i could barely sleep ... cause today was a big day and i was hella nervous.. i had a rough morning ... lotsa tears... i just didnt know where i went wrong and why he made the decision he made ... i couldnt stand the thought of losing him .. it hurt soo much .. he said everything would be alrite .. but its never alright.. i still him miss him soo much but i realized .. theres nothing i can do anymore.. he doesnt need me in his lfie rite now.. hes going thru enuff and the stress i put on him isnt needed... but anyways ... then i got home .. and went to the mall to get my jewelery and shyt and hten went shopping for other shyt and thenn went to aishas to get my hair and eyebrows done.. then got home... and i was waxing my armss and i had technical difficultires haha... i like burned my hands and shyt haha.. and i was sticky all over haha.. and so thenn mojo and shelly came over and waxed my arms for me .. mojo did a beautiful job haha... so it was 530 and so i got dressed .. and so my date picked me up at 6ish .. went to go meet the rest of the gang .. went to cyrils to take pictures.. ahh his house is sooo pretyt haha.. then waited around for people ahemmm simon hahah ... then we went to americass for dinner... it was an all meat restaraunt great haha.. so i just had a salad.. thenn we finally got to prom at like 11 haha ... danceeddd the night away.. it was amzing.. and thenn we went to chirags hotell.. and partied it uppppp :):)  .then i got home .. and had a nice talk with salmann hahha i know he enjoyed that one haha

and then sunday i just chillaedd hehe

and noww im back at school.. its been a realll bad week tho.. ive been getting back shitty grades... its over for gooddd between me and boo.. and all i can do now is drown in my tears.. sighs ...

im at kavitas house rite now.... she makes meee sooooo happy! shes my fellow vampuire whore.... u gotta love her mann!!! \

mayur is stupid for leaving me hanging lol

ummm what elseeee..... i hatee historyy!!

i like spaghetti! i had it for lunch today!! it was great!!

ummmm ... my head hurts rite now .. like alott

I need my own car ... caus eif i did .. i wouldnt get sooo screwed sometimes...

kavita really needa go study for her SATS or her mom is gonna take her chapals and throw it at her!!!

okieee weird day todayyy!!

ooo the white camryy doesnt work lol... we cant for some reason put the key in the car.. my dad screwed it up.. The DAYYYY we give him the nicer car he has to screw that one up tooooo!!!! ughhh .. meaning nooo car for me .. double ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

oohhhh yeahhhh well kiddos ima gooo noww.. BUTTTT remember thisss...

GATSBYS stalking you

outside your bedroom door

gatsbys stalking you

more pyschotic thanbefore

gatsbys stalking you

hell be there forevermoreeeeeee

* wow what a randommmmm xanga entryy haha *

* btw guys .. for those of yall who have been thinking that ive been drunk/high lately.. yeah IM NOT LOL ... i wishh hahahha .. JKKK :) adiossss chicos and chicassss

When a girl is quiet...a million things are running through her mind
When a girl is not arguing...she is thinking deeply
When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions...she is wondering how long you will be around
When a girl answers "I'm fine" after a few seconds...she is not at all fine
When a girl stares at you...she is wondering why you're lying
When a girl lays on your chest...she is wishing for you to be hers forever
When a girl calls you everyday...she is seeking for your attention
When a girl says she Loves you...she means it.
When a girl says that she can't live without you...she has made up her mind that you are her future
When a girl says "I miss you"...no one in this world can miss you more than that...

Hopefully a certain person will read this and all his unanswered questions about me will be answered. and maybe this mite be a reassurance to him that IM NOT LYING and the way im acting reflects the way im feeling. ANd hopefully one day .. I will be HEARD.